My life for the past 5 months has been a winter. All of last year, I was in a relationship that was as topsy-turvy as a rollercoaster. It was a times extremely thrilling and supremely depressing. Rarely had I enjoyed a women’s company so much as when I was with her. But we were never very serious, though I loved her. As nature herself withered during the winter, so did our relationship.
I miss her terribly, and it’s been very difficult recovering from the loss. Motivation to go out all but disappeared. I mostly stayed at home, slowly growing out of shape. I distanced myself from friends and other relationships.
I always knew, however, that this was but a phase and I would be back to active socializing. I just didn’t know when. Slowly, but surely, like a sapling, the desire has returned. Lately, I’m happy to report, it’s been in full bloom. Part of the reason for isolating myself was a loss of confidence. The 10 lbs. in weight gain didn’t help, nor the skin problems. These, I’m taking care of. Last I checked, I was down about 3 lbs! But the really heartening thing is that my social abilities, particularly with women, haven’t dwindled. If anything, they’ve gotten a little better. The attention I’ve been getting when out dancing has greatly restored my confidence. I gotta watch getting too cocky.
I’m feeling more motivated. I’ve begun my new house search in earnest. I’m not only returning to salsa, but plan to pick up cha cha again too.
A breeze at my back, the sun on my face. Spring feels good again.
Making My Way 